Hi, I'm Kat. I am married to a sometimes wonderful man who is an alcoholic. The man I am married to is always different depending upon if he is drinking or not. He was doing so good, but now he's doing bad again. I'm a normal girl, who likes normal girl things... who wants a normal life, and a normal husband. Maybe God has different plans for me. Oh, and I am a Christian. My husband is too... somedays. This week has been bad, which is what lead me to start this blog, that I've been wanting to start for a couple of years.
I love my husband, I really really do. However, I do not love the man he becomes when he drinks. All of his Christian beliefs are thrown out the window... actually, everything that he is when he is sober is thrown out the window.
This blog will show you my life. The good days, the bad days, and whatever else comes my way.
Today-
Today started off as a bad day because we got in a fight last night. It was a sober fight, but still a bad fight. About something silly actually. I asked him if he had gotten something from his boss, and somehow he thought I was "talking to him like a child", so therefore I'm an "idiot". Yeah, that's right where the fight started. So onto today... He got up for work, got ready and all I got was a "bye". No hug, no kiss, no "I love you", just "bye". Oh well. I left his bible out for him last night, hoping he would read it this morning. No such luck. Not a phone call from him all day. I spoke with him several hours after he is normally off of work, and he said he was hanging out... with the not so wonderful people he hangs out with when he's drinking. Oh, and he also said he was on his way back from buying beer. Lovely! So, tonight is a night alone. I hate these nights. Why would I have gotten married if I wanted to spend most nights alone? I know I just need to keep doing the right thing, and hopefully soon he'll follow. I just need to keep praying. So, that's what I'll do. Good night!
